August 28th, 2008

the title says "spiritual warfare". what does it mean? is it a new war down under?! no. it's a war inside each of us...a war that the evil one is definitely happy in participating.

some of you might not relate to this post. however, i'll still relate what it is all about...

it is so easy to be a so-called "Sunday Christian"...feeling so guilty during the sermon, thinking about what to do after the whole sermon thing, crying afterwards (or during...not really crying, but shedding some tears dahil sa "guilt" or "pagtama" ng sinabi ni pastor). ugh. i'm getting tired of it.

then, during weekdays. you think about God when you wake up. but you don't think twice if you have to do your quiet time. feeling bad about not doing the QT...for a few minutes. 'cause after, school and friends dominate the mind.

THIS IS PRETTY BAD!

parang before lang, ang sipag ko magQT. parang laging may reason para magQT. teka nga..dahil ba late na ako gumising ngayon? at talagang ang oras pag umaga at gabi ay pag-aaral, pag-iinternet, at pag-pprepare lang nakalaan? this is crazyyy! you feel like everything's ok..when it's totally NOT cause you haven't committed your day to God. you haven't praised Him and thanked Him for His very abundant blessings He showers DAY BY DAY. you haven't asked for His guidance, wisdom, discernment, will for the things needed to be done and obligations and responsibilities.

bakit ganon? parang may seasons ang Christian life ko...did i say "Christian life"? NO. it shouldn't be. it's "life"...my life is not divided into "Christian aspect", "school aspect", "friends aspect"..as if all those parts are mutually exclusive. dapat all of the other stuff are just subsets of my whole Christian life.

i am a Christian who happens to be a student and NOT a student who happens to be a Christian!

in everything that i do, i want to let the whole world know that I am God's child and i'm changed because i am dead in sin and alive in Christ! i want them to be blessed with the GREATEST GIFT i received...salvation from our MANY SINS. that i am now no longer a bondage of sin but now under God's loving hands. that i am different not because i stand out, but because i stand up for God..and it's something i cannot do on my own. the Holy Spirit living in me is the reason why i've changed.

i don't want to be a Sunday Christian anymore. i want God to shine His light in my life..i want to be a vessel of His plans for mankind and channel of His blessings to others.

i am not living for my own. i am crucified with Christ therefore i no longer live. Jesus now lives in me.

God, help me. please be with me always. i need Your sovereign help for i am a weak person. i am easily tempted by the devil and lured by the world and its selfish desires.

"the greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips, then walk out the door and deny him by their lifestyles.  that is what an unbelieving world simply finds unblievable." - Elisha Petersen, X-treme Faith.